things are getting desperate

I'm gonna cry... this song started playing on my Windows Media Player... I really do think this is a sign. Holy mother of all that is holy.... :'(

I wanted to make some things for my darling pals, but unfortunately I've been taking care of kids ALL day. I was in demand. ;D But still two of them left recently, Leslie is still sleeping over. I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a long day as well. Anyways, I find it amusing how it's this song. WARNING: Spoilers for my future fics!

( Shouldn't let you conquer me completely Now I can't let go of this dream Can't believe that I feel )

You must all think I'm insane... sorry for all the pointless posts. I just wish I knew why it hurts me so much to think of Demyx not ending up with anyone in my story. That's so dumb from my part. It's just a story... Just a story...

Oh shiz was that an epiphany just now? I think I just might have to update a certain journal. ;-;

Now, I will make a proper timeline of my Raspberry Swirl universe at another time. I'm just going to make a list of all the stories I've started... but cannot post yet due to it being out of order from the AU timeline. Yes, I'm a loser and have really put much thought into my retarded AU world. Anyway... I'll include a small summary for each one! Or at least the ones that had more than two pages. Most if not all are from my Raspberry Swirl AU, so if you see ( * ) it obviously means it's not that AU related! :D

( Fics that have been sitting in my smut folder for months... )

Now my question to my darling friends... would you guys read a fic even if it's out of that holiday season. As you can tell I always start fics for a certain holiday but never get to post it on time. Something always comes up at home. So, if you would I'll try to finish the New Year's and Vday one a.s.a.p so I can share it! I have a hilarious Akudemy short-short to post as well! :D Don't worry all you AkuRoku fans, all my Akudemy stuff revolves around their friendship in my AU world. I'll always warn you guys otherwise. I feel so bad because deep down Akudemy is my guilty pleasure, as I admitted to my darling thiefqueenriyo a couple of hours ago. I don't know why I feel like such a horrible person. My cousin would stare at me, and be like... um and? But then it would click, and he's like OOOOOOH. I guess my inner AkuRoku fangirl feels bad. :[[[ I'm at a loss for words when it comes to describing my love for that pairing. It's weird.

The only conclusion I can come to is because I enjoyed writing them in this AU world so much, that the pairing itself grew on me from there. :o Oh my. *Roxas attempts to decapitate her with his keyblades, but misses by an INCH. O.O* WAHHH! *GOES INTO HIDING!!!!*

I really have to analyze things through. The reason my main story came to a dreadful halt is because, pairing wise, I'm not sure which direction to go to anymore. The only for sure pairing is obviously Riku/Sora, Cloud/Leon, and Aerith/Tifa. Everyone else is in limbo in my head. Even Kairi and Selphie! Kairi is obviously more than willing but... Selphie is with Irvine and she seems "happy". Kairi doesn't want to ruin that.

Demyx as we all know, being my second fave next to the lovely Kai, I'm very careful how I make him respond to relationships. At this point I wasn't even sure he was going to be um, gay. He's only been in two relationships, and the both ended with him being dumped. D: *Kairi hides from writer person, and so does Ariel* So naturally, the last thing on his mind is to get into another disastrous relationship. Ah, I'll see how things go. I've seriously babbled enough. I need to go to bed.

My mom's friend's daughter Leslie is sleeping over, and I need to tutor/help her with homework tomorrow. So goodnight everyone! If anyone of you read through all that. Whoa. I give you all the cheesecake in the world! :O

I think I have an idea for a tiny ficlet. I keep starting things, yet never finishing them... So hopefully this one won't be the case. I'm going to channel my inner Kairi so I can update as her ;). Maybe then when I get some rest, I'll actually write the fic. By the way this fic will have nothing to do with my Raspberry Swirl universe.

Dear diary,

It's Kai again.

I'm not one to worry, but in this case I just might have to. With working overtime at the cafe, and trying to get Riku and Sora closer together... I haven't had the chance to buy Selphie a gift for Valentine's day! Ugh! How can I be so stupid? She means the world-- no, no the UNIVERSE to me, and I forget?!

That is so unlike me. I need to make up for it, but to go buy a last minute gift... it seems so wrong. D: We've been together for three whole years, and-- No, a last minute gift is out of the question. But being gift-less sounds just as bad. Wow, I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.

Hmm... I know! I'm sure if I talk to my two bestest buddies, they'll know what to do. Besides, I still have to get them together no? ;)

Yes, I can invite them to the local mall later today. Actually I should do that... now. So, I'll have to cut this entry short. I'll update you with in depth details after the holidays.

Thanks for always hearing me out, diary. You're really one true friend.

xoxo,
Kairi

She closed the diary, and locked it. As Kairi left the room to go call Sora, a faint noise was heard. No one noticed it though, and the diary's lock came undone somehow.

"One true friend..."



( Ring, Ring Sora darling )

I'll keep editing the post once I wake up.

This woman loves to start playing whenever it's Kairi related. ;D For some reason I can't stop updating... after drinking my anti-depressants... the ideas just keep coming! D: I'm sorry for clogging up anyone's friend's page. Hmmm. I really should be sleeping.

I think I might continue to make my retarded character posts on here as well. I had girliekeyblade on GJ, but since that's hopeless at this point. Rather, maybe in this case I could make them mini ficlets. I dunno, it's just easier to write in first person at times. Regardless I have a small fic that I wanted to post in honor of New Year's! Look how long that has taken me. D: With V-Day right around the corner too... GUH.

When I don't drink my meds I lose any motivation. They're not prescribed or anything, so I really don't like too take too many... but whatever. Shoot, I'm so HYPER. I need to sleep! D: I've slacked and haven't been cooking on schedule. My mum is soooo gonna kill meh.

I feel horrid because in the New Year's fic, Kairi's love is unrequited. D: *mopes* But Selphie is supposed to still be with Irvine at the time... *tries to hide from Kairi's glare of DOOM* Okay, now I will totally go to bed. :| *hides from angry!Kairi*

This is just for future reference! But omigosh this person is just a genius! http://community.livejournal.com/bisexualicons/4689.html#cutid1 All these wonderful icons are sooooo drool worthy! I basically uploaded all the Kairi ones on here, for the most part anyway. :x

I want to upload all the Sora and Riku ones, but then I'm not gonna have any space for my own. :| It's just Kairi's an exception. ;D

*drools at all the pretty colors*

I'm soooo in love. ♥3♥

Hmmm, for some reason this song has given me a plot bunny. :o I dunno. I've been wanting to write some Kaiphie for a loooonnng time. Fluff though. I can totally see something like the lyrics of this song happen between Kairi and Selphie.

It is pretty obvious that Kairi's paopu milkshake brings all the gals to the island. ;D Maybe Selphie can get jealous? Ooooh. A jealous Selphie? I never knew it was possible! :o *evil grin* I might have a use for little innocent Namine after all. >:]

Darnit... I really need to post some new ficcage soon, before I burst! D:... OOOH Cascada is playing now! WAHHH! :3 I love Cascada.D: D'AWWWW Ready for love of all songs. Now my fanfic Kairi is feeling retarded. D: She's always ready for some Selphie lovin'! :3

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copy-pasted from khyuri on greatestjournal;

I've been gone forever, and I really don't have much time to explain things... so I'll make it quick. I promised banners and such for your userinfo, so here's an example of what I was talking about. There's nothing special about them but they're still fun to make.

There's a more in depth explanation at the faghag graphics on LJ. But anyhow, so far there's only one but the list will grow eventually! If you have any suggestions to who you want to see next, just drop me a comment on this post. Only if you'd like of course. I could make about anything from scratch the only thing I used texture wise was a background from nakedandangry.com. ( love that place! ♥ ) So any requests at all ( even if I'll take awhile ) don't hesitate to ask! I aim to please. :) (Yes, it's one of my Kairi rules. Where do you think Kairi gets it from? )

Here's the sample;


Tifa Lockheart has shared the paopu fruit with me, and now our destinies will be intertwined forever and ever. You snooze you lose Cloud!

( Kingdom Hearts Series; )

( Final Fantasy Series; )

I hope everyone is doing okay!♥

xoxo,
Lucy Fag Hag

copy-pasted from khyuri back on greatestjournal;

Pointless update for all! I just thought this was pretty effing amazing, and couldn't help but post it. Even if it's probably uber old news. xD Whoever made this is pure genius, and has my undying love forever.

THE WAY TIFA AND AERITH SHOULD BEEE ;D MUAHHAA

I also found a rather humorous review for the final fantasy viii game on youtube that I felt like sharing. I almost pissed myself from how much I laughed. Hopefully some of you will find it a tad bit amusing. So far there are five parts, and ongoing... here are the links posted so far.

[part 1|part 2|part 3|part 4|part 5]

If only Quistis knew how much of a girlie crush I have on her. D: Haha emo git suffices him muchly. But regardless my number one gal will always be Kairi. Selphie a close second. ;). Anyways, the goodies will be coming next post hopefully... Or I'll probably spam the comm with some other useless shit, who knows... Sorry if I'm clogging up the friends page! Until next time loves!
xoxo,
Lucy Fag Hag

note to self; must edit with updated links later